Ellie in the middle

Of torts and malicious attempts

2012-01-20T22:30:00.001+01:00

Back to exams.. the timeline is getting shorter, the brain is growing wiser and the waist is getting fatter.The sad thing about my life right now is that I'm starting to think in law terms. The WORSE part- coppercab kid (never heard of him? you live under a rock, but still, feel free to check him out on youtube) feels like the best source of entertainment that came to humanity since the invention of the coloured cubicle :/Try not to have a heart attack people. To you freaks out there, have a good one :S God help you, whoever you are. God help you.///

We all have a story to tell ...

2012-01-14T13:49:00.001+01:00

I recently came about this amazing room decor and I am in love.I was "surfing the net" (no?.. too tacky? oh well) when I discovered the brilliant blog "BOHEMIAN VINTAGE" and here is the link, ladies and gentlemen: http://minasdecorandfashion.blogspot.com/2007/12/hippie-style.htmlI was immidiatley drawn to this blog, even though it lacks variety it does go for what it's called, that being; "bohemian vintage". This girl has an eye for colour and the beutiful fabric creating it. On my next appartment rennovation, I'd seek some inspiration from there.

Point to the queue

2012-01-13T14:26:00.003+01:00

Is originality REALLY "original"? I say "not", since the term was in itself adopted by others.So whoever wants to describe themselves as "original". Halt. Think. Make up your own word for it.Think about it ;)///

"I will see you in another life, when we are both cats"

2012-01-11T00:03:00.001+01:00

My dear, dear (depressing) country is lately being extra politically-absorbed and I should just say that: as much as I love politics, this is becoming quite utterly annoying to be around.Being circled around the aura of spoilt and the I-AM-BETTER(and fatter)-THAN-YOU attitude of ALL the politicians is somewhat sickening. One politician who has lately caught the headlines (his mother must be so proud, after years and years of preparations and all those speeches they must have had before every competing childhood "who's the ugliest of them all?" pageant-shows), is frankly making me dedicate this post to him/her/it.. I'm pretty sure it's specified in IT'S birth certificate. Dearest -whoeveryouare- this is for you:You maketh me throweth up a little every time I seeth your not-very-pleasant-looking (being very kind here) facade. Also, claiming that you are the best criminal lawyer that has happened to Malta isn't helping your case here either. Disrespectful, know-it all, mummy kiss-ass, ugly, spoilt, posh-acting, lumberjack-looking son of a bitch (excuse my French). Need I say more? maybe not, because everyone knows what you are, but apperently, you don't, because if you did, you arrogant little, side-burned twat, you wouldn't even look into a mirror (without it breaking).Besides that, my holidays were just grand :)Freedom of speech is amazing.toodles ///

Cigarette ashes spattered around your mouth

2011-12-12T14:02:00.002+01:00

The majority of the world seem not to understand... what? the clastrophobia that entices me while in this lecture room.. GET ME OUT. ugh :/anyways..The biggest debate between me and ..me right now is whether or not to attend to my most unloved tutorial of the year. PLUS.. I am in the utter most unprepared state yet. 40 pages worth of notes to read (and I learnt this about 30 minutes ago) and from those I have done nill. plus..I think I am one of the shortest students in here. Just saying. It feels strange. Everyone's tall, I am notand..I still cannot get my brain to wrap around the fact that some girls wear leggings as pants!! why? why so cruel to yourselves? :/ It hurts my feelings. They are not there to be worn as undergarnments, nor are they there to be worn instead of the most basic fundamental piece of clothing known to man kind. The kind that man has worn, stating that a woman should not and that kind that Coco Chanel took the liberty of creating for women all around the world. Because she was a genius. So ladies, DO NOT put Coco's ideas into ridicule. Fight for your right to wear trousers. Leggings are not was she had intended to be worn instead of her magical woman-suit creation.Step up..and wear trousers.End///

Poking you, Stabbing me

2011-12-09T10:29:00.002+01:00

I honestly haven't thought about this christmas's wishlist to threaten mum with yet, BUT fret not.. I WILL eventually think of something rather demanding and rare to ask for.
For now though, all I want, really really want, is February, but I'm afriad santa will not be able to get that for me in a stocking underneath the bloody christmas tree -.-' so I'll just have to wait...
why Feb? ok: 1) Exams would be over,
2) I'd be going to Venice's carnival :) and
3) I won't have to miss Gozo's carnival either, since Vinice's is to be held on completly different dates..
So voila.. I want February!

Now, on my appartment floor, merely lying there, looking ...dead is a tilah I was using to try to paint ...something. It is covered is all types of horrifying looking reds, that make it look as if a Chinese Mafia mob molested, raped, stabbed and pissed on it... several times over BUT it will turn out to be not-so-dissapointing.. I can tell. Trust me. No, really.
On the opposite side of the crime investigation-looking scene, is a Bonsai plant that my next door neighbour asked me to hold for him till he returns back from Russia. You find that everyday. The plant is pretty. I might just hold it hostage.. mahaha. yea.

Happy Fryingday
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A blue piece of paper just keeps lying there in the corner..

2011-12-06T00:16:00.002+01:00

Blood-red sheets and sweat-stained gloves. All from a 5 minute round. Nothing's new and all is shed, in the ring with heroic fregnance bound.
“Excellence is not a singular act, but a habit. You are what you repeatedly do.”

Happy Monday/Tuesday early morning
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Black's Law Dictionary

2011-11-30T22:06:00.002+01:00

My bad, I was unable to keep my promise (you know, that of posting every few or so minutes...or was it seconds?)
I have this annoying feeling in my gut, that all the things I plan to do in the next coming days will remian just that- things YET to do = undone. This is amazing, really...467 pages to go and I am on page... 2! amazing life :)
Ok I'm rambling. Excuse me, BUT instead of judging, take into consideration WHY I'm rambling.. hmm why?
People, my friends, ramble when they (apart from the annoying tendancy of doing so) have alot of rat crap on their mind (not literally...) and in so many forms- or in my case, just one, try to express themselves in the most basic form known to human kinds: by writing it down. Ok, so maybe the blog phenomenon just came out recently, but writing hasn't (Who was it..the Greeks? Goddamn lame asses invented math -.-' What they had nothing better to do with their time except for make up numbers and come up with wierd formulea about how the wind blows in several directions at a time.. it just does. Let it be!)
Yes, my point. I have ALOT on my mind. What? none of your busy ass wipes..

I need to go shopping. Damn, it christmas soon and all I came up with was a crappy fish for my nephew.. not the edible kind. You know, the kind you place in an aquarium and look at, like a perverse idiot watches his next door neighbour undress slowly from his window.. yea. Wrong comparison?
I leave you be. I have stuff to attend to.
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P.s, I really need a bed side lamp. I keep bumping my foot everytime I get up for the lights.

My name is, my name is, my name is... valentine

2011-11-26T21:59:00.004+01:00

It has been a WHILE!!! huge, great, almost-as-my-ass enormous while. I know you can't say that, but what the heck.
Many things have been going on- or have happened since I last wrote somthing on this not-so-personal diary I used to hold so dear (by that I mean: checking and initially posting every 7.5 minutes or so)...
One thing my life is circled around at the moment: LAW. The duty of the citizen bound to him by the state. yes! THAT and all the bla bla bullshit that comes along with it. Yet, though I call a huge chunk of my life (which is that precisely) bullcrap, I cannot immagine myself doing something else...so far. I might think otherwise when I (hopefully, eventually..maybe) graduate and fail to find a job. In that case, I would abhore, spit on, step on, commit masscres (I think you get the picture) of the moment in which I had chosen to follow such a long and winding journey of a course.

SIGH.
I would also, ladies and not-so-ladies, like to dedicate this post to the movie I have recently (yesterday) watched, called: AMERICAN HISTORY X. I know, it's quite an old movie, and the actors that were so annoyingly sexy aren't so sexy anymore. They aged, as we all do. Creams and all that crap don't work, deal with it.

COFFEE:
I cannot deal with life without having 6 (or 27?) cups of coffee a day. I can say that I am becoming a sort of coffee-junkie, which is in a way a tad funny, or so(no? ok)... In fact I just finished one now and thus an feeling very hyper. Just to let you know

MY BLOG:
Has been re-incarnated!!! Thus, be prepared to see new posts popping up here and there every 7.5 minutes (I might make it 8.9 minutes this time, since my life is kind of busy and stuff of that sort)

RANDOM: is the best way to go

AU REVIOUR:
and good night (not in my case. I only sleep at 5.30 am- you know, coffee)
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dead-end story

2011-01-18T12:31:00.001+01:00

boom boom goes the brain.
the brain in dead.
amen

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Shot in the face

2011-01-13T21:47:00.002+01:00

Today I sign in to bitch about everyone's occupation for the moment: exams!!
People take these hell-born things so seriously, and within reason (unless your course is really easy and in that case I hate you for it- metaphorically)since they are MEANT to stress the whole juvenial population out. It's not fair and they do it on purpose too, for their own sadistic pleasure, just like Satan has fun watching people suffer in the flames of that cursed hell.. not to dwell into religion.
That aside, I have found myself feeling something I have never felt before : panic. Yes,panic! Elisa Meylak is panicing before an exam.

The more boring the subject is, the harder and they dwell so deeply into things to make sure that thay confuse you, as they watch from behind their coffee mugs with a huge, idiotic grin on their faces..

ah well, that's life
stay tuned(when I post that is)
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No wonder it's called "X"mas..

2010-12-18T09:05:00.003+01:00

I can't WAIT until March arrives!!!! With that said, I shall explain what will happen in March now.
Scotland awaits, then Milan then hopefully, 3 months later, Manhatten. A full year if I say so myself. Another *funfact* of why I want March to come is so that December ends and so will January. No, xmas is not an exciting time. My best friend died in xmas for hell's sake. So no, it's not the festive time of the year. Ok, maybe it is a bit. It gives me an excuse to party and drink the night away so I can forget it's actually December.

That aside, I feel rather awkward right now. I'm on my old computer which none of my family has used for over 2 years and yes, I feel like I'm typing directly from the insides of a dinosaur.
Does everyone reflect throughout the year? reflect like there's no God-damn tomorrow. If not, then start reflecting now. Do you ever think of when you were little, was it better or worse than your current situation? what about old friends whom you haven't seen or lost contact from in ages? sad isn't it.. well, what about your lost ability to have fun, when it used to spell your guts out a few years back. No so-called "life of the party" anymore are we now, you semi-grandma :0

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Oh, and happy holidays yapidy yapidy..

Amazing Atheist?

2010-11-18T20:41:00.005+01:00

OK, so life's not exactly meant to be difficult at the moment... but when you're a complicated person like me, where problems grow at the speed of light, or when you just merely root for them you're bound to no longer see that oh-so-smooth 5 minute situation you were in...well, 5 minutes ago.
Fine, so I'm a moaner.. everyone is sometimes. Life is actually good... my uni course is a bit tricky, (now I know they're not joking when they say that law isn't easy)but the rest is "perfetto".

Well, originally I bothered to log on here today to ask/quote the "Amazing Atheist": "What is God?".. (Now you see, it's nice to have a point of view from a person whose not an atheist). To the obese guy, (the A. Atheist) whatever his name is, God is something we make up in our language, like per say when we say "God help us", or "God damn it".. that is partially true, since it's not actually God that's blessing or damning it, but it's merely us through our wishes. To me, God IS something above us, we may/may not create, but simply the higher power some of us may feel surrounding us.
Let's get this straight, I do not sound like a junky on crack right now for saying this, (No, I am actually serious)but it's an opinion best shared by the beholder, just like the obese guy felt like sharing his beliefs through his stage name. Maybe, he should have included food in it.

Goldberg hits the gold mines.

2010-10-08T09:06:00.002+02:00

Whoopi Goldberg has written a book, which hit bookstores this week. "Is It Just Me" contains the annoying things that exist in the world.....in other words she wrote an autobiography!
With a name like "Whoopi", one doesn't really expect any sanity. So, no Whoopi, it's not nuts out there, it's just you.

Bang bang
stay tuned
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Remember in December, we swore we'd never change?

2010-09-19T00:54:00.002+02:00

Things change, people change. That's an unfortunate fact. Still, it's rather sad to think of what was and what in fact is now, even though what "is" might be better than what "was" in the first place.
Maybe it's the nostalgic song I'm listening to by Skillet that's making me think about my past, but do you not agree that it's sometimes an upsetting fact how friends change? And you come to certain point were you act as if neither one nor the other ever existed.. not very pleasant.
Even though many argue that change is good and I do agree with that since I am not at all a conservative person. What I'm not too keen on is the way feelings and actions change between 2 people who used to care about each other and suddenly everything falls apart. Time is an enemy as much as it might be a friend... (not to wrinkles of course)
Everything changes really, for example: the movie "Dirty Dancing" transformed into that of "Step up", the beautiful curves of Marylin Monroe became stale and beauty is now viewed from a catwalk point of view, a fat Kelly Osbourne became a size 2 Kelly, a once dominant and immortal-seeming Mintoff is now on his death bed.. and so on. It's part of life.
C'est la vie mon lovelies. Get over it Ellie dear.
Stay tuned
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Summer is the excuse for the hips to grow wider.

2010-09-17T00:06:00.003+02:00

I've been drinking water like crazy for the past 4 days and I'm peeing like a race horse. Yes. Sorry, too much info.
I've had one of the best weeks lately and it's about to get better.
Pictures are lacking due to my laziness to charge my camera, but I promise to as soon as I go back home to Gozo.

Other news: Karla's Closet is having an amazing sale of all her vintage clothing and let me say that they are probably some of the most beautiful outfits I have ever seen. So take a look see.

Oh and...

Why post this?
Because I can ;]
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The famous editor's editing editorials.

2010-09-15T14:23:00.003+02:00

Ever heard of the saying: "If you want something done, then do it yourself."? Well that applies quite a lot in this world, especially in this fine, inadequate and so-called humble little island of Malta.

The significance of my post today is to merely grumble about what the people at the "Administration office" are able to do, or not to do in this case. After several minutes of "holding the line" and which seem like countless hours of listening to the crushing sounds they call music, a woman then asks (as what she may think is in a polite manner) to "once again hold the line"... and the story goes on and on...and on...and on.When finally reaching a humane-sounding voice which is other than the recorded voice machine, they simply answer with a "Sorry, but we're unable to help you... just check our website".
Are these people not able to answer a phone with decency and stop taking lunch breaks after every 3 calls they answer? and if you're supposed to be of "help" to confused about-to-be students or anyone calling for any particular reason whatsoever, aren't you supposedly able to please them without checking the website to answer their question? Because sincerely, we can all check the website ourselves in that case. Are you simply there to have a job and do nothing else, because if that's the case.. well then, tell me where to apply for it.. or will you just send me to your website for that as well?

BOOM.
stay tuned
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Combat boots and mini skirts... where have I gone wrong?

2010-09-06T18:30:00.005+02:00

Of course, everyone thinks they're right one way or another and this is a fact.
It's hard to admit, but this MAY even apply to yours truly.
What I have learnt throughout my 19-year old brief journey though life is that letting your guard down every now and then doesn't hurt anyone, not even yourself, which some of us may be so conscious of.
Getting hurt is a part of life. Deal with it. Some might think that by building an imaginary brick wall around them, the harsh emotional feeling would eventually be less felt. This is not the fact. No wall can protect us from reality. Only we can defeat it by facing it and staring at it so hard that it will eventually penetrate it's eyeballs. We can only do this by letting down our guard, else how would we be able to pass through and fight the battle?
Simple.

Stay tuned.
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Cigarettes, booze, toothpaste and Zara.

2010-08-24T17:37:00.004+02:00

Finally, I have come to realise that one can acquire what they truly wish for if willing to work for it. Yes, because I'm getting there and though "there" for you will remain a mystery, it will be equivalent to comfort food for me.

Yet no, I did not log on to write about me and my very long, winding journey. I come to to write to you today (after quite a long time) to talk about the very confusing and not yet quite understood concept of "love". What exactly is love? and how can one perfectly define it? The answer does not come from any type of TV show, or your daily talk with you 350 Euro per hour psychologist. Love can only be determind from the individual himself.. any individual and every individual has his own idea of it.
How did I come to this? Well, let's just say there was a very heated debate about "love" on the bus from my way to Sliema and what I've come to the conclusion that one person rarely agrees with the other on such a personal topic.

What life itself defines IS a long, winding journey. Just like mine, but everyone has his/her own road to combat and unless you've been through that road, the path not taken should just be another mystery yet to discover.
Now, my "agony aunt" moment if officially over.

stay tuned
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The vagabond alternative.

2010-08-02T23:32:00.003+02:00

"a blank page".. sounds pretty easy, but I dare to oppose to that statement.
The "blank page" starts if you work for it and along with it comes a "new life".
The fruits of your labour people, the fruits of our labour.

The dead plant beside me got on my nervs.

2010-06-30T13:39:00.002+02:00

The randomness of life was never really much of a big interest to me before. Never had its effects on me.
Now, well the story is different. Things crumble down underneath you, others build up.. but do you really want them to? Good times are taken for granted, but missed when it's all over. It's not fear you feel, but indifference.. and that in itself starts to scare you. The final results are unknown, but you cannot wait to get the hang of things around you and of things yet to come. Let it all be over and done with and after all, come what may. The world spins madly on.

Stay tuned
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Backspace to the past

2010-06-17T17:33:00.003+02:00

I see many people wearing historical-figured tees, but I ask myself every time whether or not the person actually knows more to the face on his t-shirt rather than their name.
People talk of Stalin, Ceausescu, the Che Guevara tees, the Kamikazi or Hitler and the second world war.. but what fraction of historical reality do they know about these people and events proceeding their paths? Disappionting enough, the answer would be:- very little or none at all.

From these last few years I have been learning History, I have learnt that it's an amazingly beautiful subject and there's much more to it than just meere facts.
Therefore, I know it's a free world and all, but if people wish to prance around with symbolical facts and faces on their chests, the least thing you can do is learn about it.. I mean would you wear something in another language when you don't know what it means? .. wait, of course you do -_-'

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Shooting myself again.. accumulating the times I try to kill myself and never succeed.

2010-06-16T18:27:00.003+02:00

I don't get the whole big deal about summer. It's boring and you run out of things to do right after you just thought of doing them. And, not to forget, I can never really breath in this heat.
Parties, yes. But they too get boring after a while. BBQs, also, movies- can be watched in winter... same old story to every known-to-be "major" thing in summer.
Thus, I cannot stand the word itself. Yes, yes I'm moaning like an elderly here, but lets just face it- it's not technically my fault that I am stuck in a country where there isn't really much more to it than feasts and a club that opens once every weekend.. of course.
So excuse me if me sharing my hatrid towards the season of heat and disturbance you might love so much and so hopefully await for all winter is too much for you to bear, but until something truly "major" happens, the love ain't happening.

stay tuned =]
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It all started with mother-daughter book club.

2010-06-15T12:50:00.007+02:00

"Twice two is four!! Frankly, I don't give a damn"

2010-06-03T09:13:00.006+02:00

After a whole day of supposed "hard work", I realised that I am wasting my time serving people. Whether a waitress or a sales person, an air hostess or a clerk... you are serving people and its not pleasing enough for me.
Yes, I have 2 jobs. why? no not because I care about the money I make (even though I'm in desperate need right now) but because I have nothing better to do in summer and because I want to experience alot of things I never dreamt of in my life before I die.. like having 2 jobs.

My point was: during my morning job I have come accross one of the most fascinating books in the history of literature, by F.Dostoyevsky, "Notes from Underground" were a thought to be diluted man contemplates about his "insanity", but technically (or in my opinion) the world around him is going mad rather than himself.
In the words of the Sunday Times, it's "Hilarious yet disturbing"

"Well,it is from these bloody wrongs, these practical jokes of an undentifiable jester, that pleasure finally aiss, pleasure that sometimes attains the utmost rapture."

Enough I say!
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Come-back

2010-06-01T10:15:00.002+02:00

Since all intervntions have now seemed to evaporate- like every other "major" event in life, I have therefore decided to re-dedicate some of my time to report the ongoings of everyday life and those of the spinning world around us.

Exams are now over and I doubt I will do any better this time, but we'll come to that when it's time, eventually.
Till next time
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diet...

2010-02-04T08:41:00.000+01:00

here I come =/
Well, I'll try

2010-01-29T07:17:00.000+01:00

... you could say that.

Anti-cosmetic surgery

2010-01-29T07:02:00.005+01:00

OK. Everyone needs to fix something in their body or their face, but that doesn't necessarily mean one should go for the overly used method of cosmetic/plastic surgery.
I harshly criticize that method and if I don't undergo it, then no one else in the world should. Most of you would agree ha ha.
It's a highly dangerous procedure and things may turn out wrong... including your face =/
Besides, plastic boobs are not a very attractive thing to look at. (Guys might disagree with me here, but I'm just giving a woman's perspective point of view.)

TOK.effin*.YO

2010-01-26T21:11:00.002+01:00

2010-01-26T21:02:00.000+01:00

We have the power to change the world.
Yet, we don't.

The lve of Richard Nixon.

2010-01-23T08:19:00.002+01:00

Question: Why does my fringe grow at the speed of light, but the rest of my hair refuses to follow?

I need something... new

2010-01-16T12:30:00.000+01:00

Yes, my baby will kill me for this..

2010-01-11T21:52:00.001+01:00

but I just felt like it
teehee
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Before I forget...

2010-01-11T17:30:00.002+01:00

1 item still left unsold:

2010-01-07T15:13:00.004+01:00

Size 6/39 ASOS brand new/never worn before shoes.
Leave comment or send an email if interested =]

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Thanks for the givings.

2010-01-06T12:27:00.003+01:00

Maybe it's nobody's problem. Maybe it's mine and mine alone and I'm quite fine with that =]

And what exactly has time brought upon us?

2010-01-03T20:22:00.003+01:00

I have recently gotten inspired to further extend my research upon the Victorian era and most of all, the Victorians themselves and their fashion-sense.
This was an "article" I decided to write for my own personal information, and this was what I managed to produce:

"We now live in a world which revolves around newly-found technologies and fashion. Every fashion scoop is highlighted and brought to everyone’s attention, whether on TV, magazines or fashion blogs, it will surely find a way from which to reach us.
It has probably never, or slightly ever occurred to us what the fashion world was about a few centuries ago and if it was given importance. Well, if you have never thought about this fact, I have and being quite an inquisitive human being, I set off, hit the books and what I found was rather surprising, if not shocking.

The London industrial revolution, brought about new ideas and inventions in which we attribute today. Dramatic changes in the social and economic structure took place as
inventions and technological innovations created the factory system of large-scale machine production and greater economic specialization.
In 1837, cloth was manufactured (in the mill towns of northern England, Scotland, and Ireland) but clothing was generally custom-made by seamstresses, milliners, tailors, hatters, glovers, corsetiers, and many other specialized trades people, who served a local clientele in small shops. People with limited means who could not afford to patronize specialists made their own clothing, or bought and modified used clothing.
Charles Frederick Worth, the "father of haute couture" and the prototype of the fashion designer as the dictator of modes, was a London draper who relocated to Paris in the 1840s. His later success lead to the dominance of Paris fashion houses over women's upper-class clothing in both Britain and America.

In the 1830’s, in order to achieve the seemingly attractive hourglass figure, women had to wear corsets. The corset was mostly used to compress the waist, shaping the body, and raising the bust. Women from all classes of society wore corsets. The corset "shrank" the waist to about 20 to 22 inches. Yes, that probably meant that such women had hardly any room to breath in. In my opinion, corsets were probably socially approved medieval torture devices used to hinder a woman's movement, but if the fashion world cared about what I think, this would be a bleak, tasteless world.
Purses, too were becoming more of a necessity and the ladies had their hair elaborately dressed to imitate wigs.
Later on, the trend towards sexual dimorphism in dress reached an absurd apex. Men's fashion became a series of distasteful, black tubes, like that of a smoke stack one is most likely to find next to a hospital building. Women's dress, on the other hand, though still rather distasteful, continue to balloon out with ruffles, decorations and petticoats until the pitiful figurines wearing them looked more like wedding cakes, rather than human beings.

In 1860, major products were created which marked the course of fashion-history …the sewing machine, the popular dissemination of pattern books and systems for garment cutting.
At the start of the Victorian era most fashions lasted about a decade, but mass communications and mass production both improved so much, that by 1901 the history of fashion was moving in quite a vast cycle. Thus, it is safe to say that the industrial revolution not only brought about creations in machinery, but also opened doors from which garments could be seen from a whole new perspective.
Both men's and women's dress became more complex during this era. Men's clothing construction, while outwardly simple, began to acquire the internal padding, interfacings and complex structure that to date, allows a man's suit to fall so smoothly.
Fourthly the crinoline domed skirt silhouette had a flattened front and began to show a dramatic leaning toward the garment back.
Charles Worth found the crinoline skirt unattractive. However, he is known for it, as he did manipulate the style, as a result the shape soon changed to a new trained, softer bustled version, which only the really rich or nobility found practical.

Though they had made their early mistakes, it’s rather important for one to point out the versatility the Victorians adopted in their fashion lifestyle every few years, a tactic we more or less use today.
In 1866 the new Princess gown , too had changed the line of fashion.
The Gabriel Princess gown, with a small and neat white collar, was mainly made in grey silk and followed the fuller skirt lines of the era. This is the dress style often used to depict the buttoned up, repressed governess character of Jane Eyre in films. Later on, Princess styles were slimmer and much more form-fitting. Sleeves in day dresses often adopted that of a banana shape.

Just like in Cluade Monet’s painting in 1866-67, women were seen with the fullness bunched up to the back of the skirt, creating a polonaise style, crinolines and cages suddenly disappeared turning into bustles, which supported accentuated drapes on the hips.

The women of the late Victorian era had a very different look about them compared to earlier Victorian women. In 1870, the ball gown was suddenly adopted as formal evening wear, only to be spotted as day wear three years later.
Fashion in Paris kept evolving and just like in our very own century, it kept turning new ideas into an inspiration everyone heads after, ranging from the simple Pioneer daydress to the elaborate evening gown. Although intricate detailing was the popular trend, not everyone could afford this luxury and therefore was most commonly popular amongst the wealthy.

Most general style trends of the Victorian era transcend any facet of fashion and had broad influence across clothing styles, architecture, literature, and the arts. Many of these had their roots in the 18th century but flowered in the Victorian age.
Some people now look back on the Victorian era with wistful nostalgia. They probably dream of a world full of lacy dresses, lavish balls, country house parties, and charming cottages surrounded by old-fashioned flowers. Historians would say that this is as much a distortion of the real history as the stereotypes emphasizing Victorian repression and prudery, but the Victorian era had much more to it then just prudery, sexual shame and sociable ignorance.

Youth nowadays who work the “steam punk”-look probably have no idea that this style is inspired from the Victorian-style clothing that has been "tweaked" in edgy ways: tattered, distorted, melded with Goth, Punk, and Rivet styles.

Thus, only one conclusion is found plausable and that is that "History repeats itself."

;]

2010-01-03T08:39:00.002+01:00

12 months!!

2010-01-02T11:00:00.002+01:00

I must admit that 12 months on NY's day is a bit unusual.. thus made it even more special =]
thanks for being there x

Everything's gonna be alright... rockaby

2010-01-01T14:03:00.002+01:00

2009 - was quite an interesting year and even though most of it was utterly harsh to the point of insanity, I do not regret to have gone through it. Infact I am proud of myself to have made it through what I have.
This year was a year were I learnt about myself, I lost, I won, I gained and accomplished, made new friends, but probably hurt some people along the way who did not at all deserve it.
It was a year of discovery and of self-achievments,a year which I started well and ended off pretty well too =]

Most importantly, I know more about myself than ever before.

Happy new year!

///

2009-12-30T11:53:00.001+01:00

"The BAD GIRLS we love and look up to are the ones who have some TALENT, some artistry, some arguments to back it all up. They're RISK takers, the non-conformists"

There's a magic running through your soul.. but you can't have it all.

2009-12-30T08:32:00.003+01:00

I broke my camera =[ and it's sad since I'd love to have had some memories of yesterday. Had a night out with the girls and some of my sister's old friends. The food was pretty bad, but the atmosphere we created was phenomenal ;]

NYE tomorrow!!! and I still haven't bothered to look for a dress. Ah well, tomorrow is in a land far faaaaaaaar away.

Bring on the Champaigne!!!

2009-12-29T08:00:00.001+01:00

cuz a new year is ahead of us.. "and I ain't staying sober" ;]

In my way... there's you

2009-12-29T07:50:00.000+01:00

We are golden.

2009-12-28T17:14:00.002+01:00

I haven't blogged in a while. It was such a hectic week really and honestly, party after party isn't so nice for the brain after a while.
It was the best Christmas ever, but such festivities aren't too kind on a figure like mine.
It's good to always have something to look forward too and this week has been an on-going charade of plannings, sushi, dinner parties, presents, shopping and diamond-study ..
and now it's getting exhausting.
but much more is yet to come... and I'm honestly abit scared

///

Who said anything about having too much Swarovski? =]

2009-12-24T14:14:00.002+01:00

Time won't let me go...

2009-12-23T10:41:00.003+01:00

The next vacation will be with MY own wackoo family =]

I'm worried about you.. the alcohol is free and you're still sober.

2009-12-23T03:25:00.003+01:00

Yes it's 3 in the morning and YES I'm still blogging. Yesterday night was pretty nice, counting out the fact that I had a major slip in front of an insanely large crowd, but at least most were too drunk to notice. Heels and slimey floors don't mix.
My hair was damp, my make up was done in a rush and an evil-looking bitch kept eyeing me all night.
Ahh yes, was a pretty nice night =] oh and I met Ruth again after such a LOOONG time, ever since "omlette du fromage"

It didn't stop there. When I thought my night was over and I was about to head home, my bf decided to go to marsalforn and thus there we went, singing Def Leppard all the way through =P.. no?
///

A few hous till the so called "ball"...

2009-12-22T17:21:00.002+01:00

and yet still no idea what to wear.. but then again, planning ahead depresses me

I got meself an xxl santa hat..

2009-12-21T14:56:00.002+01:00

one word sums it up: "WWWAAAAAAAADDA"

I'll be 2 steps behind..

2009-12-21T00:13:00.004+01:00

Ok. So these 2 days have been quite nice. Astounding would be the perfect word infact. The others make me quite happy when they come from Malta and Nik is always full of surprises (remember track 5? =p)
haha. Seriously, you guys complete me. X

Ok, now enough with the cheese!!!!
We shalt buy santa hats tomorrow morning and parade around Victoria with them, while the people of gozo give us their usual "disfunctional,my mum and dad are siblings" looks =D teee
Oh, and HOPEFULLY this time I get to meet Katy again
///

"It's so..green, so fucking green"

2009-12-19T18:12:00.003+01:00

Today has been a hectic day. Busy and full of shit (literally, I stepped in dog shit, haha)but at least I had a good night's sleep =] .. but still, those fucking birds kept chirping. Nik, kill those birds !!! =p
Ok. I have to go now since people await. toodles
///

funny how it can be so similar to reality...

2009-12-19T10:44:00.002+01:00

Xmas presents... what to buy what to buy? and I'm contmplating on this while skint.

On an unrelated note: I never knew that others know absolutly nothing about me and what I am. The worst thing is that people all think they do.
Yup, life's a bitch and there is no winning, unless you root strongly in what you believe in.

The smell of wine and cheap perfume.

2009-12-18T17:56:00.002+01:00

Sherlock Holmes. A must see ..
dum dum ///

Everyone messes up..

2009-12-17T22:22:00.001+01:00

and so do I.

2009-12-16T22:51:00.000+01:00

sad enough, but true.. spelling? that's all you have to say?... God, why bother..
haha

Wait...what?!

2009-12-16T19:19:00.000+01:00

..Tiger Woods? how many mistresses??

<3

2009-12-16T19:09:00.001+01:00

She's a very simple-looking person at the same time, a very stunning person.

Not even part of the story..

2009-12-16T18:51:00.003+01:00

All are users, liars and suddenly they stop talking to you.. that just summed up most people, but it's ok I don't really need alot of people in my life, just the ones who really care.
And before you start calling someone a looser, look back at your life, than you'd realize that you copied me in most of my "looser" tactics...and I do mean EVERYTHING.. or everyone ;)
People come and go in your lives when they see who you truely are and I know most who have.
We should all look at our defects before talking ...and don't you worry, I do.. and I know I'm far from perfect, but at least I'm happy with who I am and I know when someone is acting lower than low and you fit that catagory quite well.

This case is closed and you are non-existant to me if you feel like being like this then. I definatly don't need you and definatly don't believe anything that comes out of your mouth, trust me, I've had my expirience with you.

/// Tchuss

Sorry Stephan, I can't do your hw tonight...

2009-12-09T21:52:00.003+01:00

.. since I still have to pack and my flight is at 4:30 am.
Bought my NYE dress today. I'm not the typical planning-ahead sort of a person, but I really liked this dress. Mum said I should have waited till at least getting to London.. but she knows me, she shouldn't preach.

Tty next Tue (since taking a laptop with me is a waste of garnment-space in my luggage)
//

I wear high heels, she wears sneakers..

2009-12-09T13:55:00.001+01:00

Thanks for calling Daniel, Nik and Cath ;)

2009-12-07T19:18:00.003+01:00

Well, it's been a long day. I had to go to malta suddenly. A trip to the hospital and everything turned out pretty ok. More than ok infact. Though I had barely ate anything at all and felt like I was on the most powerful narcotic, I went appartment-shopping, or to be more precisce, furnish-shopping. So yea, that went quite well.
Oh yea, and I managed to buy a jacuzzi for my appartment =D!

Until next time...
///

Destinantion London in -5 days

2009-12-05T08:48:00.003+01:00

I honestly can't wait for my garnments and shoes to arrive ^^.. Well, I hope mum won't find them before I do in the post. She'd seriously chop my head off knowing that I'm still buying stuff before going to London next week =/
Well, can't really blame her.

Wii ^^ Saturday today and I can't wait for tonight. I never used to like Saturdays before, but ever since the others have been hanging out here instead of Malta and Nik got a car (instead of that stupid motor-bike =p)it's been amazing.

///
That's all.

New inspiration..

2009-12-02T13:34:00.004+01:00

I suddenly have a strong urge to work the "tutu look" (only if my thighs were thinner.. but ah well, they could be worse)..

Oh and...

// that's all.

When I came to school today..

2009-12-01T14:39:00.003+01:00

.. I was greeted by a card that said many beautiful things and best of all, I'm pretty sure it meant them.
Ily babe ^^

///
I don't need all the people to love me, just the ones I care about.

Girls just wanna have fun =O

2009-11-29T17:07:00.003+01:00

Do they really exist?

2009-11-28T13:57:00.001+01:00

...I doubt it really.
My turn will hopefully come, one day. In the meantime, I have my thoughts to keep me company =]

I see you laugh..

2009-11-26T15:16:00.001+01:00

..and it makes me laugh.

"She's as pure as NY snow."

2009-11-22T15:25:00.003+01:00

I think that most people still haven't grasped the fact and realised how much little care I give to anything that is not necessarily worth it.
Fine then let me make it simple for you:

*I don't care whether you like my style or not. I am completly fine with myself, so butt off and find someone else to waste your life on and if you think I'm ugly, that's your problem.

*I don't care about rumors. If thay talk about you, you caught their attention. Thus, you're not just a useless piece of furniture in the world.
*I don't care about anyone else's success, unless they're true friends, family or Nikki. I only care what I achieve in life, plain and simple.
*I don't care if my hair is in place, if my f*%&$*£ language is proper or if others think I'm far from "perfect". Noone is perfect, and you're no exception.
*I don't care about Global warming. I will continue to use spray deodorant and non-overly stinky tip-ex.
*I don't care if you stop talking to me. Then you're not worth it.
Besides, less drama.

*I DO care infact, if you all follow the same trend and same flablablas. It will make me feel deeply sorry for you.

///

It was quite an OK day..

2009-11-20T20:42:00.002+01:00

Today, I saw an old friend and it was quite nice.
It's good to see and speak to real friends and no matter what, you are always allowed to be yourself.

///

Today's history lesson was the most boring lesson in history lessons' history.

2009-11-19T17:32:00.002+01:00

-It really was. I mean, I love history, no doubt about that, but for some odd reason staying in the front is finally getting on my nervs and so is my teacher.

-Dan called me and now I can't wait for an awesome night at Malta next Saturday.

-And now my chauffer is here,so I have to stop idiotically ranting and go on my coffee/movie/tequila date.

Bye
///

Remember poker face?

2009-11-18T15:21:00.001+01:00

Does she seriously go out looking like this?
Haha, she's awesome.

2009-11-17T21:35:00.000+01:00

TAM
TAMTAMTAMTAM

Spare me the drama...

2009-11-17T20:45:00.001+01:00

... really

I want to look like Micheal Jackson this christmas.

2009-11-17T15:05:00.001+01:00

...I do!!

In other news, my flat is being furnished and I can't wait!!! =D

teee ^^

Gucci, Fendi et Prada..

2009-11-15T09:07:00.003+01:00

MAYBE I'll be lucky enough to be diagnosed with some sort of slow and painful lethal illness.... and yet that would be better than living here amoungst all of you fakers and pretentous nobodies who assume that people are gullable enough to believe your little make-belief life. All you REALLY do is strive to be better than the person you're "friends" with, destroying their everything along the way... and for what? because you're always going to be worse than those who aren't afraid of being who they really are, regardless and you're always going to be miserable, always in search of who to be like next.

... stupid sheep.

=]

Luke Worrall anyone?

2009-11-05T17:45:00.000+01:00

Welcome home babies..

2009-11-02T13:47:00.006+01:00

Baby don't you cry...

2009-10-29T13:33:00.001+01:00

Hola Missuri

2009-10-24T19:02:00.000+02:00

2009-10-24T18:27:00.001+02:00

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2009-10-22T18:06:00.000+02:00

Craving these more than peanut butter jelly toast.

2009-10-21T17:40:00.003+02:00

"I could fit your whole house in my swimming pool"

2009-10-18T18:28:00.003+02:00

oh my! I just realised that I've spent 500 off of my credit card these past 2 weeks and it's wrong and insane.
I really need to stop spending so much... but now to the more interesting news: I got the nicest pair of Kurt Geiger heels and a top from Banana Republic...now for a mustard coat..
Pictures to be posted soon

When loneliness creeps..

2009-10-15T00:43:00.001+02:00

At least there's an amazing reason why I'm a fatty.

Just so you know..

2009-10-15T00:26:00.003+02:00

I lost my camera a few day ago.. but it's not the only thing I lost. I lost most things long ago and not that I really give a dip-shit wheather I get them back or not, it's just that I feel quite alone without them.
Yup, I'm alone and if it weren't for my boyfriend, I'd be one of those piss-pot people walking around talking to themselves by now... and still, noone would give a flying fuck.

Gimme a sec to think about it..

2009-10-07T14:42:00.000+02:00

I need to loose 30 kgs if not more..
urgh

2009-09-25T12:28:00.004+02:00

"I can ease my irritation when I'm holding a survival knife or spinning scissors like a pistol."

"Now, it's the beginning of a game," the letter stated that "I am putting my life at stake for the sake of this game... If I'm caught, I'll probably be hanged... police should be angrier and more tenacious in pursuing me.... It's only when I kill that I am liberated from the constant hatred that I suffer and that I am able to attain peace. It is only when I give pain to people that I can ease my own pain."

- Sakakibara Seito (Japanese zodiac copycat)

pheh, I'd take the real ZODIAC over this piece of rice-pudding trash anytime... why so? Since it has come to my attention that this kid.. yes, KID is nothing but one of those mentally charged people who's threats tend to consist of writing angry and strange messages in the school toilet... I would know

'ere goes

2009-09-17T22:06:00.003+02:00

OK. I have finally (after 17 years or so) come to the conclusion that people know nothing about me and the few they think they know, never really happened in the first place.
So here is me. The real me

*I am not the goofy, mentaly-charged person I tend o be. Infact, I am quite reasonable, responsible and aware of the things going on around me.

*I am pre-cautious and I examine things quite well before I speak, except for a silly remark here and then I mean to say to that certain someone.

*I know I am not perfect. I can easiy point out every defect of mine and I cannot say I am proud nor unhappy to be so.

*I love learning, but I hate studying.

*Fashion is not my life. I would not do anything for it. I will not sacrifice my life to fit into those clothes lollipos wouldn't even fit into.
I do admit, I am not happy with my body, but I am not miserable with it either.

*I would immidiatly show you that I don't really like your presence around me.

*I am anti-sociable, but I love acting. It is the only thing that brings out my true colours.

* but I am petrified of cameras.

*I am not a friendly person, but I would like to get to know a few people better

*I hate the fact that some people treat others like flies and if guns were legal to randomly carry around, I would have long been in jail.

*I have mood swings. Bad ones, but the good ones are worth getting to know me well.

*I am a geek

*I despise mony

*I would like to be isolated from the world around me

*My hiding place is still underneath the bed

*I love the occassional waking up to my boyfriend smiling down at me.

*I have what I want. That is true, but I don't have the good attention I have been trying to seek for the past 15 years.

*I will not let you use me and throw me away without getting my revange.

*I am very rebellious, quiet and negative.

*I don't hate people. I hate the ones that act too much like people.

*I'd do anything to keep up friendship, if it's worth it.

*I am an ex-bulimic, chain-smoker, shopaholic, clastrophobic, piercing-addict, hater, multi-lingual, scitsophrenic 18-year-old with a wide perspective of life.

So, before you judge me, think about getting a job or a new hobby or the least you could do is read a book in your spare time and unless you've been through half of what I have, you have no right to talk.

=]

"irrejd PDA" "mur ixtrih" "xtrajtu" "ehh?"

2009-09-11T17:53:00.003+02:00

my face just looks plain old cheesy..
//

It finally rains my people.

2009-09-09T22:27:00.002+02:00

Thanking the queen of fuck that it finally rained today, I also found myself in a messy situation while doing so. No, literally, I stepped into the messiest, wettest and biggest puddle I have ever come across.
Thank the Lord for creating boot-creators...yes, thank you for cute, black leather Kurt Geiger boots.
///

ALL MINE!!

2009-09-08T16:28:00.002+02:00

just recieved my 3 pairs of YSL shoes the other day...
mahhahahaha

2009-09-08T16:23:00.000+02:00

They look like them girls in Vogue

2009-09-02T23:11:00.002+02:00

A group of Russian men made a parody on some fashionable photo set from one Russian glossy magazine.
These,obviously were the results:

Flattering? I think not

Life on a budget..

2009-08-31T22:39:00.001+02:00

..somehow turns into a commingled dead end.

2009-08-31T21:20:00.002+02:00

today I recieved my YSL dress I have been waiing to purcas for 2 weeks now.
Rather please about it, yet still not enough.

I never really believed in anything

2009-08-30T17:01:00.001+02:00

I want to be an actress.

your heart goes over and on

2009-08-26T12:57:00.004+02:00

My nephew is at my house.
He's throwing remote controls at me.
I will kill him.

I have watched the Titanic 4times now..and it makes me feel like crap over and over again.. never knew I had it in me to feel that gay

Remember Bullet For My Valentine?

2009-08-22T15:34:00.001+02:00

.. well, i still like them